Coffee or Tea?

I miss asking you this...Today it is going to be coffee. I just started a pot. I need the caffeine, I feel like I'm still in a haze right now. I haven't slept that good in a long time. Last night I passed out on the couch around 10:30 and I was there till 1:30, after which I proceeded to my own bed. Do you know why I slept so good last night? You...Yes, I know you'll claim not to remember, but you were here with me all night last night. I felt you in my arms, I smelled you covered in incense as you laid next to me. When I woke up on the couch it was because someone was trying to take you away from me...We were at MHS again. The new MHS, not the one that we grew up in, the campus was different last night. I kept fighting back, trying to hold onto you, but poof, you were gone. I woke up so abruptly because I physically felt you leave my arms, I searched all over for you, begging and crying for you to come back. Then I realized what the date was...It's the 11th...It's the 15th year anniversary of our separation. I figured that I was just reliving the pain all over again...It hurts so much that it's getting good, but that wasn't the case at all...You were trying to be here last night.

I felt you calling me when I got back into bed, I had planned on staying up to watch a movie, but I know that it's easier for me to get out if I'm asleep. For as awake as I was, sleep came back quickly once Shadow came in the bed, he always soothes my soul with his little kitty kisses and warm purring body on top of me. Quickly I faded back into the realm where you were waiting for me. I could hear you calling but I couldn't find you at first, there was so much interference, so many things in the way, mists of colors I haven't seen before, coldness that came out of no where, pure darkness and pure light are what finally lead me to you. I let myself go, I trusted in our age old connection and allowed the darkness to pull me in while keeping the light always in my focus. Before I knew it, you were in my arms again, telling me how much you love me, how happy you are that I found you, that I went out looking for you after you had been ripped away earlier. You tried to warn me to leave you alone, to stop following you into these places where I don't belong. All I could do was love you. I know that you are afraid for me, I know that you think I'm going to get caught up in something that I have no business being involved in, but I can't control my wandering soul. When I let myself into that realm, I lose all control, it's like you become a beacon and I become a homing device that is programmed into finding only that beacon with those specific requirements and then, there I am, at your side without even really trying. The connection between us is a great one, I know you can feel it as strongly as I do, that's why you lead me to yourself last night. Once I was in your arms again we were inseparable all night. I woke up feeling better than I have in a long time this morning. I'm so glad that I didn't go out last night...or I would never have been able to be with you.