It hurts

"The only aphrodisiac I need is your voice"...Oh yes this song was designed for us. I have been fading in and out of this black hole that I'm not really enjoying it. The tears keep pouring down my face. This is one of the most painful days I have had to live through in quite sometime. This day is pure torture, I should be in the shower because J is on his way over, but I don't want to! I don't want to deal with him, I don't want to have him touch me, it's you or a stranger...But not some damn substitute relationship that will never ever amount to shit.