Loving you

Is one of the most difficult things that I have had to endure in my life. Just when I think that you have cut me free and forgotten about me, you come back saying that you haven't abandoned me at all and that you are going to give of yourself what you can. Baby, I'm selfish, I want all of you, I'll share you with those things that I must, but not with another woman. I refuse to be second best anymore. If you really love me and I mean this, you will find a way to get your walking papers from that relationship, it doesn't have to be tomorrow, or next month, but it has to be final. It's funny, being bi, I always thought that my ideal relationship would be this grand boy girl girl thing with everyone as a happy family living under one big roof, but I could not imagine sharing you permanently with anyone. A little fun for you and a little fun for me is a whole different thing. When I said kinda turned me on, I should have said, turns me on a lot. Just thinking of watching you...I'm getting all wet again. Here I go, all I have to do is think of you and the water starts to flow, is that normal? My nipples grow erect, you have some hold on me.

I long for the time when we will be able to talk again. I really must clean this mess of a house.