Ugh

Picked up the adopted one from school last night after which we went to Zythos to have a couple of drinks. We talked about you for a little bit in the car on the way there, she wanted to know if you were ok. She wanted to know if I really told you that she hated you, I of course told her I did, she replied, "Good, the reason that I hate him is because he abandoned us."

She has the same issues you and I do about all of that shit, so she took it a little personally when you left us. When I told her that you had really been in an accident and had been trying to hurt yourself, she was concerned for you, worried that you might try something else.

I told her, "not on my watch."

Last night it was her turn to be the sick one...Good thing we were only going over to my friend Sarah-do's or the adopted one would never have made it. Poor thing, she didn't know what end was up last night, she was in the stages of sickness where you just can't move once you find a spot, once you get into that zone. So, we spent the night at Sarah-do's house. After we got the adopted one to stop puking and into bed we sat up smoking and talking for hours about everything that is going on in our lives and how miserable we both are. She just got her heart broken too...Birds of a feather. It's crazy, but all I could do was think of you. Her apartment is really cool, it's got exposed steel girders all over the ceiling, but it's more like the framing of the girder than something solid. They would be great to hang someone from for a few hours...Now you know why I couldn't stop thinking about you. Everything I would look up, there you were just hanging around for my amusement...It was a very powerful image for me. So much so, that I couldn't even sleep at her place. I must have nodded out for about an hour or two because I feel slightly rested. I feel disgusting though, I still have on my clothes from the bar, and the stench of stale cigarettes is lingering in my hair. I think I'm going to try to take a quick shower before you jump online.