Why?

Why does everything in my life seem to happen at speeds not known to the rest of mankind? I can break up and make up with in the hour with J, I can feel nothing but disgust when I think of him though. You have come in and out of my life several times already in just a few short months, crushing me along the way making me unfit for any other man.

I feel the need to cut or fuck! J isn't fucking that's just play, someone for me to beat on, but no one with the ability to control. Now, the dj on the other hand, that's some hot sex, that's what I fucking need. Someone to take over for a few hours. I can't wait till tonight, I'm going for all of it. Going to wear the red skirt I bought for you, the high black leather boots from Belgium, I'll figure out the shirt later. I should wear some sexy ass lingerie as well, maybe a pair of thigh high fish net stockings that come just below the skirt...hmmm...Need to go shopping for those, maybe I'll buy a new garter belt too. I love new lingerie! That always seems to cheer me up!

The laundry should be done soon, so I'll be able to leave in a few...

The dj on http://cyberjamz.com/live.php is the bomb right now!!!! I love these old school tracks he's spinning. The music is so intoxicating that I'm finding it hard to leave the house, I don't want to miss what he's going to do next. Thank goodness for the archives!

Hey Anonymous, I see you are haunting these pages around the same time I am...