Alone

I feel so alone down here with J...I can't relax at all! I really don't think that this is the life I'm meant to lead. How can one be expected to head down a path knowing that at the end of it you are still going to be all alone? I find it difficult to sleep an entire night through laying in his bed, feeling his weight on the other side of the bed isn't a comfort, it's a nightmare. This is the best and worst job that I have ever had, I'm trying to accept it, but it's so damn hard to swallow this pill.

Fuck he's up! So much for getting any writing in today.